The writing is Nakama.
I decided on it in about 10 minutes after waking up... that day after.... then realized it kind of looks like the word Tibb *_*

It's on the back of my calf just below the knee because when you stood in the kitchen making tea, you would often feel a tiny cold nose on that part of your leg.


Thank you SO MUCH to all the comments on my last post, I tried to reply to them all individually but there's a lot of crying, so.... It means a lot that people care.

The best thing about my life is suddenly not there anymore.


Photo : Backyard of 459 S. McQueen St, Florence SC 29501 : 1988

( I love you, forever, deep into the next life and all the ones after that... )

The thing I have loved the most and always will.... It's only your body that's gone.

Trying to be more positive about it: "There's nothing that can be done, and it doesn't. define. me."
This repeats in my head a lot and it's starting to help. Suprisingly. I didn't actually expect it to!

I HAVE A JOB INTERVIEEEEWWWWWW IN LUDLOW!!!! What's even better is that I get reimbursed for the trip which is £56! So I get to spend some time with my yummy and fantastic boyfriend [Lisis, you need to meet him- so many times when we're being silly I have to stop myself from going "OMG LISIS WOULD LOVE THAT"] and don't have to pay for the trip at all ^_^ [Well, I do at first but I'll get it back]
While there I'll hand in my resume to other places in case I don't get this one, but I *really* want it. It's basic floorwork [bar/waiting] in this country lovely pub, but they want someone serious about working who they can train to NVQ level and get into maanaaagement! MANAGEMENT. I ... HAH!! Never thought I'd be excited at the prospect of being a manager. It feels odd. Anyway. Not getting my hopes up, and if I don't get the job I still have a free trip out of it where I get to catch up on the D&D RP I've missed! While I've been away Laurie has introduced a new character to it... called... TIBBS. ;____________;

What else? Eeeeeehh... nothing. Gonna go watch Cirque Du Soleil DVDs and wish I could do all the things they're doing! [Not just in the show... travelling around performing *sigh* how dreamy!]

Post Subject Title stolen from a J2 fic [obvs] because A Certain Monkadoo has had to change theirs. What's most shocking is that *I* was the one who initiated the... status-changing. I was drunk at the time and dressed as a pirate in a not-at-all appropriate club to be dressed as a pirate in, sure, but it had been on my mind for a few days anyway. Dutch Courage? FTW.

Also, caught up with LOST after being absent from it for like 3 years. OMG. LOST. *_* This has also rekindled my deep and painful love for Hurley. Siiigh. Hurleeeeeeyyyyy. I want to meet him at the drinks table in someone's party and make out with him on the couch. Ahem.

Began D&D RP game with my BOOOOYFRIEND and our friends but am going to have to try doing it via webcam until I can get back to them again. I am a gnome called Rumguzzle and I have a giant caterpillar called Bermuda who I can ride. It's way too much fun, I'm glad I never did it until now because nobody else would be as fun to do it with as these guys. My BOOOOOOYFRIEND is also a really freaking good drawing-person.

Hum. Still looking for a job and am trying to catch up on my long-since-read friends list. I MISS YOU GUYS! What's been happening in your lives, my tender little buckets of fruit?

Ari-Ari-ARIGATOOOO GOZAIMASU, MURASAAAKIIIII-MONO WA SUGOI DESU YO!

Therefore in the past couple of days I have made up for all the sleeping and not-being-able-to-do-stuff : learned how to crochet, re-learned how to bind on in knitting [again ¬_¬]... this time I WON'T forget... been getting books from the library* about other things I want to learn too, like candlemaking. Which is another of many somethings I used to know how to do ¬_¬

Georgia [Laurie's sister] wants to buy some of my things to sell on so I made this just now to put on card & attach to the stuff I have ready. Dude, when I get a website my business cards are gonna be so SWEET. They'll pretty much look like this anyway [except with teh linxx0r 2 mai siet!! AWSUM!1]:



Even though so far the only "knitted goods" I've done is 3 stripes of some legwarmers for myself [YES. I CAN MAEK STRAIPZ NAO 2 PLZ!] but having that on there means I can't skip out on knitting things to sell, yo. Like I know would happen fo'sho'. Listening to juice817 read SPN fic while I do it helps a lot too, although regular breaks for drool-wiping are necessary ;)
I searched and there's no Boosh audiofic D: L@@KS LAIK A JOB 4 A MONEKH!11


Am going to the craft market today, last week I was SO pissed off cause I had to stay in bed and it's only on once a week. THIS MEANS 2 WEEKS WORTH OF YARN & FABRIC SHOPPING NAAAAOOOOOOOO IS ACCEPTABLE :DDDDDDDDDDD

*Got a non-crafty one called "From Hoarder To Order"... hmm. We'll see if it works ;D

PS! While in the art store buying sheets of felt, it was discovered that they sell jewellery findings now as well :D Oh, and the teensy matter of them LOOKING FOR STAFF. How dreamy, to work in an art store! Little piggies are being firmly crossed that the return of the application form tomorrow will not be a disappointing one!

Thank you so much for the well-wishes. I realized that it probably seemed like I was all "meeeeh pity me!" but really I just wanted to prove that for once I had a non-lame reason for not posting for a while. Too little, too late I know.
It's still there, a bit, I can't turn my head unless it's quite slowly, can't run up and down the stairs ....but what beats the meat is that I can't dance or practice poi [SRSLY. Worst side-effects EVER.] but at least I can move around albeit slowly. Just takes time. The bastard.

Also a bastard because thjorska is visiting his brother who lives a 10-minute walk away from me and I want to go hang out with him and do silly thiiiiiings and roll about pretending to be Zim & Gir and suchlike, and he's only here until Tuesday. :(

I had a dream last night about being in a store with lots of cool clothes I haven't seen before. I woke up and drew them so that when I can make things again [sewing is also out, the BASTARD. Focusing- or trying to- on small details makes me nauseous] they shall be produced and the riches will be mine. Trust me, they're pretty freaking awesome. And in the dream they were mega-expens0rz so now I can have them for free, and for real! Hazzah.


In other news, the disease that has landed [supposedly. While swanning around the southern part of the country for the better part of a month before getting ill myself, I hadn't seen anything to suggest we're in some sort of biological crisis as the news would like you to believe] shall hereby no longer be known as Swine Flu, but PIG FEVER. That way if I *do* end up getting it, it'll at least sound awesome. Goodly-named illnesses are my thing these days, you know.

And in about 30 minutes when the water's hot, so will bathing. I am going to use the Bubble Monkey from Robbin & Reb because it's loooovely and I think I deserve such a luxury right now ^_^

PS: donkeyprincess!! Last night when I had a headache that subsided into earache, I read that holding something warm on it would help. The sweet monkeything you gave me recently was amazing and perfect for the job! And it diiid help, a much-a-much :D

Labyrinthitis

Is what I have. And it sure as hell ain't perdy, despite the name.

Imagine your worst ever drunken night of dizzyheaded blurry-visioned sickness, times it by 80 and make it last for 3 days continuously and that's about where I am right now.

It started on Sunday at around mid-day, I was looking through fabrics and felt like I'd stood up too quickly. Rather than going away like that feeling usually does, it got worse even when I sat down and then I threw up.... I got to ride in an ambulance and have injections in my buttcheeks, woot.
It's still there today but this is the first time since then that I've been okay to get out of bed other than being walked to the bathroom by my mom. SO. BORING. I couldn't even do things while in bed, like make stuff cause I couldn't focus and even a slight nod of the head made it feel worse. All I could do was sleep through it. I still need to sleep through it but Ive been asleep for the better part of 3 days & nights, NEW & MOAR FUN STRATEGY PLS.
It has made me realize I don't want to drink like I did. This feeling is horrible and I want it to go away, yet before- many times- I have done this to myself on purpose, and paid for the privelege. Only *now* do I realize how horrible it is.


To make it worse, just now Tesco Internet called and made me cry, saying that I have been using their service when I cancelled it about 4 months ago and now they want £40 or they'll "pass it on to a debt collector". They say they have a tracker and can prove I've used it recently, which is BOLLOCKS cause I haven't even *used* the computer that it's on for months either. So that was something I didn't need and they can all go to hell and eat dead serpents.

yus. hallo! still in ludlow, quickly doing this after a bbq and a bout of IT Crowd, Venture Bros, Nathan Barley, Burn Notice, screamig at the dumb bitches in Jericho, Lie To Me, America's Next Top Model, King Of The Hill, Michael Mcintyre's Comedy Roadshow, thinking about seeing Dave Ward again and flirting with him, discussing my perhaps-upcoming [ie: October] cruise to the Caribbean with a vicar called Colin who drinks red wine & port, and consuming too much Vodka n irn-bru while Laurie is sleeping and I am about to do the same. Haven't been able to catch up on flist for AGES so PLEASE comment with anything good happening/any posts/lollzorz sites/SPN or Boosh fics & vids/anything else you may need me to see, however remotely relevant it may seem. K? K.



sleeptaimez nao. hoap u r haevin gd time in sweden k bironay? i r train 2 b abel 2 maek it whyl u thear deapnde on cash surplay! EAVEN IF I RUNNIN ON OAVERDARFT I STILL EAVENE MAKE 2 SDEWN FOR A MEAR DAAAAY IF AI HAEV TWO. COZ I NEAD TE SEEEEE UR FAEC AND HOW GARET U N ISEFLOP R TOGETHATR! fR REEEELZ!!11!1

IT'S NOT OVER! IT'S NOT FINISHED! EVER! I'm still sleeping in the tent in my backyard [at first it was reasonable because liselotte_e and donkeyprincess were here but last night I just didn't want to pack it away. BUT. Then I got a call and Laurie is visiting for a few days and he arrives here later. HAH. SO. I have a rather dreamy excuse to keep the tent up for a leeeeetle longer :D

The ... the whole goddamned thing was so FREAKING amazing. SO .. JUST. SO. JOY. Met all the old favorites again, my dreamyloves, and some great new people as well. Special Mention must go to Willow though. Such a fantastic laaaydee!
There will be many photos. Oh yes. [When the adventure slows down a bit ;)]

Oh. LOL. I got a letter from the bank today saying that I now suddenly have a £500 overdraft. Am still trying to decide whether this is a blessing or the worst thing they could possibly do. Sweden, anyone? Er. Um. YES, VSAGDZ HEJ U GAIZ.

COOOO.
This video is pretty sweet.fgggggggg mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm'''''''''''[[89]

[That last part was Tibbs XD] her outfits are... just. OH. WANT. AND. Her face. HER *FACE*! It looks so good with all the different makeups and I can't stop watching it! The song is delicious too. Oh, her voice!
ps.
watch these interviews with her! She needs to be my frieeeend, haha!
Blop

Blap

Last night I dreamed that Jensen had a seedy past of doing twink vids, and Jared stumbled across one of them by accident and called him up on it and wanted a reenactment. OMG. OMG. I love my brain ^_^

I am with Fiend and Lisis in a Brighton internetpoop cafe and we have been having the MOST TAIMEZ OF FUN here since we arrived on ...err... Tues or wed? Can't even remember, things have been so crazy and great! Beachtimes and drinkies and visiting Oli and Felicity and me being tortured by an amazing gay guy called Ryan. OMG. HE TOTALLY DIDN'T KISS ME AND IT WAS THE MOST BESTEST NOTKISS EVER.

There is also something that we're not telling someone but they will find out soon. HEE.

I still smell of sweat from last night and it's pretty damn good. ^_^

INUTAAAANETTU JA ARIMASEEEEEN.

( latelies )

:I think I may have lost all my music and pictures and drunken videos... my external hard drive doesn't make its usual noise and the light blinks where it used to be a solid light :/ so. It's not *broken* broken, but I still can't access my stuff. Does anyone know anything about this sort of thing?! It couldn't have happened *after* I made that huge music upload that I was supposed to do. Oooh Nooooo. ¬_¬

As sad as I am that I may have lost -among everything else- all my Tibblepics, I am strangely calm. Um. I must be spiritually in a good place or something- usually I unleash the ultimate verbal & physical wrath for the smallest things.

OH. AND. Caught up all the way to the end of Avatar. ZUUUUUUKKOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! ZUUUKO! MARRY MY FAAAAAAACE!

Also caught up with Venture Bros to the end of series 3- R.I.P. BROCK'S MULLET D: D: D: PLS COME BAAACK!


Ok, going to make myself some festival hair now KTHXBY :D

Lately:

Festival Excitemeeeeent!

sewing lots

Still being awake when the sun comes up, then getting 5-ish hours of sleep from about 5/6 am. Not a bad thing, it's just how it's been.

peach Lambrini

"chicken" sandwiches with BBQ sauce, mayonnaise and sliced tomatoes [Seriously. It feels like I'm in Texas! Um?!?! XD I dunno, I've never even been there XD]

Podfic

Jupiter Rising. [SO. VERY. MUCH.]

Oh God, and Mesh. I'm gonna upload a bunch of Mesh for you guys, IT IS TOO GOOD.

Approaching smoking as a "reward", only allowing myself to do it after I have done something productive. ["Something productive" doesn't mean "eating Texas Sandwiches", sadly.]




Great. Now I have to add "Texas Sandwiches" to my interests.
.........and peach lambrini ¬_¬

Mmmmm, I love it when people disable embedding. NOTTTTT! Anyway, Go watch Bill Bailey be my magical husband for a bit! ^_^


Anyway, 3WFF is at last being "arranged" [Mine & Lisisisis's definition of "organized" is a lot different to the rest of the world :D], the NEW TENT arrived this morning... :D:D:D I am going to set it up in the yard first so I am prepared for what to expect on arrival and don't waste precious Faerying-time XD

Then I have to get on with making stuff. Haven't even finished the skirt I started making in like, November ¬_¬ But still.




SO.

EXCITED.

EDIT: ( blop )

tmi lolol
( yeah, he is so proud of being disgusting )

edit again:
New memory tags- J2 fics :: SPN fics.
Not all of the ones I need to add are added. YET! >:D

*____*

HJKHUSHSBSHJS BHZLYHULZ *FLAIL*


D: D: D: D:

So it's technically my birthday today [my Earthday, really. *my* my actual one is in October. Anyway]... I usually hide this fact and don't ever mention it BUT.

Today I went to Uxbridge. Contrary to popular belief, I do NOT have a small crush on the girl that works in Pret who always remembers me and just asks "coffee?" even though I am awkward and have it all complicated cause she knows how I like it, and I was NOT disappointed when she wasn't there when I walked in. <_< ... >_>

Ahem.

The guy was like "Oooh, before you order anything I have to tell you.... You look very good today!" HAH.
Then as I was waiting for my coffee, he looked at someone coming out of the back room [who I couldn't see through the hot-wraps-and-croissants cabinet] and said "Whose birthday is it today?!" So without thinking I said "Funny you should say that, it's mine!" THEN THE GIRL WALKED OUT *_* Eeep! XD She was carrying a couple of bunches of roses for some reason [on the way out, she wasn't working] and she saw me and gaaave me one of them. HAHA And I was like "no no no, seriously, they must already be for someone!" Hahaha then I was so excited I said "Can I have a hug?" Before I could, you know, use my brain. *facepalm!*
But she was like "okay!" and that thing happened when you both go the same way and almost ...ER. YEAH.

Um. LA.


Also contrary to popular belief, I did NOT sit there drinking and grinning like a moron HAHAHAHAHA XD

The end.

[[It told me blow-by-blow that it was 5 A.M when I *KNEW* it was just gone 6 A.M.]]

I rode home [not having slept, as usual these days] from Hayes at 6 this morning with a headless pigeon corpse in my Powerpuff Girls rucksack. [Um. In a Tesco bag in another plastic bag inside my actual bag. Wtf, I wouldn't just PUT IT IN MY BAG FFS- I'm not a weirdo! XD]
A few of you may suspect why [if not I'll give a clue: someone likes bones], one of you definetly knows, and the rest of you will just have to be bewildered. YAY, BEWILDERED!


Now, I might either listen to some SPN-fic podcasts or go to sleep. Haven't decided yet! :D

O HAI, can you guess life is REALLY PRETTY FUCKING alright around now?!?!?! It may be the influence of the upcoming 3 WISHES FESTIVAL OR SOMETHING, I DUNNO WHAT IT'S CALLED, IS NOT IMPORTANATAT TO ME LOL... that might be making me a bit giddy and excited about *everything* these days........... but probably not XDXDXDXD

Oh, and have this other bit of stuff, just cause I dunwanna update twice:


[[Written in Notepad 10:30 pm Saturday night, May 9]]
Sara came round today, and I have purple hair now. YAZZAH. Also scraped loads of gross dead-but-still-soggy skin off the inside of my left cheek. FACE-CHEEK I MEAN. WTF.
( detailz0rz for those who are not icky about gross stuff... such as the inside of your cheek peeling off :P )

Anyway, by the time I'll have posted this it's pretty much healed and the fuss is over. LAAAAAA!

"You Could Cause You Can So You Do... Things are shaping up to be Pretty. Odd."


( 4:21!! [warning for capslock/keymash/ColinFord!Squee. Ah, and *****SPN spoilers****] )

And for those of you who I still love and might want to read my posts, even though you don't know about SPN and care not to click upon the ramblings of The First Cut™, ( here is something *everyone* can enjoy... )

LOOK. LOOK! PLEASE CAN WE GO LIVE THERE, ALL OF US FOREVER?

From here, and thanks SO MEGAMUCH to edhelur for the tip-off :D:D:D:D

Well. Um. There was nothing in the world that could make me want Dean more.

UNTIL THIS:


Geeeeeee-zus. Whoever did that vid wins all my life. [When watching fanvids I always prepare myself for the worst editing and lame clip-head-pasting so that I can never be disappointed hahaha. But this... THIS]. He looks so evil and remorseless and YAS PLZ. God. with... the KNIFE. *_____* If he was holding that and looking at me that way... oh. HELL. I am totally done for.

Lollz, someone needs to write Dean/me-as-a-guy knifeplay!evil!restraint!torture!fic XDXDXD

I can... um.... I have... Shit. I can't lie. I have nothing to offer in return except for the ability to flail in capslock :D
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Fear not, anyone who may have had fear, even though I have discovered a new fandom I am still totally in love with the BooshBoys- I reread the Mighty Book yesterday and almost died of not being able to breathe! IT IS STILL SO GREAT :D