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Fix me in 4-t-5.......

I may as well be a drunkArd again- [except totally don't worry, I won't. really dunwanna! :/] I thought it was the alcohol that made me embarrass myself. But no. It's just me XD

I may have been alive 30 years [even though am NOT 30 plz. EVAR. ahem.] but I still don't know how this is supposed to work... this whole "tell a guy you like him without being a 7th-grade retard about it" thing. How?! And why do I even *LIKE* a guy?! I DO NOT "DO" FEELINGS. UGH! Bastard. Lame. LAME!

I feel like a barnacle clinging unwantedly onto the ship of humanity :(

PS. Derpeshian r not cumin back innit. Plz no to woray u gaiz. Just. This one thing.

Edit: Just found a STACK of J2 fixxorz not read for ages in my "memories" >:D muahahahahahaaaa! Now I believe in Santa Claus XD


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Jan. 10th, 2012 09:24 pm (UTC)
I'd offer some advice, but generally every time for me it's something along the lines of "so you wanna... do... things... together... a lot?"

Does not always work, either.
Jan. 10th, 2012 09:30 pm (UTC)
Huh. Trust yooouuuu to be the first reply! But in all seriousness...

You know who I am. This will become nothing soon anyway so I don't even know why I'm letting myself react. It'll ride out. Always does :|
Jan. 11th, 2012 05:47 am (UTC)
I think you're having a bit of a crisis of confidence here! Things don't have to go bad just because it's you wot's at the center of it all. It ain't so unlikely that people will fall for you, you know. You are a very attractive person in many ways.

So why not take a chance? If he's anything like me, he'll be glad you did, whatever happens in the end :P
Jan. 11th, 2012 08:38 am (UTC)
Now on reflection I don't think he's interested at all, actually- we went for teh dinnAr Monday night and he didn't even try to hold my hand! So. Anyway. Friends are better than anything else so whutevs man. WHUTEVS :P

Still a cunt, having to wait for this to fade away by itself. GAH.

[also I didn't miss that lovelynice tone in your last line <3]
Jan. 11th, 2012 07:15 pm (UTC)
Well, you never know, he might just be completely oblivious and a little bit hopeless. You remember how I was, right? Utterly clueless... although I was about 17 at the time, and I was also me. So that might not apply in this case.

Anyway, speaking of friends, you're always welcome to pop by for a visit and complain in person :P

But seriously, if you're ever feeling down, come on by. I'm still your friend, even if we don't see much of each other these days.
Jan. 11th, 2012 08:28 pm (UTC)
He is TOTALLY not oblivious kthx. I LameBook messaged him one night when not just drunk but DRUNK [BAD IDEA] and don't exactly remember everything but am pretty sure he got the message that I'm "interested". Yeah, also. like. He's almost 23 years older than 17 so definetly not a case of "dunno wot 2 do innit"!! XD Whatever, I've spent most of today being over it already. Except for the times when he walked in, which is when I forgot that I was trying to NOT like him :/

YOU. I'm just sorry forever. I'm a complete dick and you still like me and want to be my friend. I don't show it enough but you have to KNOW that I appreciate you merely existing!!!!

Also. I STILL ONLY SAW THE FIRST BRONIEFACE EPISODE PLZ. So I have no choice but to come see you again haha ;P

Jan. 11th, 2012 08:42 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I think I can safely say that I know what you're like when you're drunk and talking to people >:P

Anyway, I know how hard it can be to move on from things - you know me, I've never taken any of my breakups in stride - but, hey, it'll get better. Or you'll find someone even more amazingly superhot delicious to start drooling over.

And seriously, come over any time. To be a bit selfish, I could do with the company! It's nice hanging out with my brother, don't get me wrong, but I could do with seeing a few more faces around the place.

(I'll even spot you bus fare, if that's what it takes.)

I know you are Big Mister Job-Haver these days so you have less free time, but seriously - come over whenever you want.
Jan. 11th, 2012 09:02 pm (UTC)
I don't WANT to drool over anyone! I am so so so very unbelievably HAPPY alone, and then for some reason if I "like" someone, it makes everything miserable. I thought it was supposed to be the other way around?!


I will, I'll have to make sure of it before I move to Glastonbury! [which I still dunno is exactly when but most likely before or during March]
Jan. 11th, 2012 08:44 am (UTC)
[in all honesty I'm convinced he only went out with me to be polite because he knows I like him. And that makes me feel YUMMY. ¬_¬]
Jan. 11th, 2012 12:54 pm (UTC)
Heh, I may have turned 30 a while ago, but I'm not quite sure I ever made it past 20 in reality...
Jan. 11th, 2012 06:29 pm (UTC)
I know for a FACT you didn't! :D :D S'one of the reasons you're so good ^_^

I never made it to 10, personally.
Jan. 27th, 2012 01:42 pm (UTC)
Which reminds me, how many years is it since we last met?

(Which leads me to wonder whereabouts it is you live these days;-D)
Jan. 27th, 2012 08:44 pm (UTC)
Oh man.... if my hard drive hadn't died, I could look up the date of photos from that BBQ at diglett's and find out! I suspect it's at least 5. I'm feeling it's actually more like 6 but I don't know if that's just cause it feels like longer because a lot of shit has happened since then!

I'm still living in VERY West London- my house is, by road, a little less than 2 miles from Heathrow airport. It's near Stockley Park where Aden works [or probably used to, been ages since I saw ANYONE of "your" bunch :P] was funny once, I saw him at a bus stop when I was helping my mom with the shopping one day and felt like saying " it's too weird! you belong at parties in VERY East London! not here, where I live!" haha! :D

Anyway I shall be moving to Glastonbury soon, thanks to an angel in the form of my friend Felicity. I should be able to start actually living the life I wanted to 10 years ago! WOOT WOOT!

anyway dude, wossapnin with you these days?! I don't get to read LJ much but I'm hoping that once I move I can get PROPER internet and can start keeping in touch better <3
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